Chocolate Milk

That’s cool. Don’t text me back dick.

Mermaid dresses are downright fugly.

First I tear my ACL
Then my only sister dies
And now my stupid school has suddenly changed its mind and is now forcing me to take my Algebra II final.
Screw you coach Lawson.

Right now, my sister’s brain is no longer functioning.  Her heart is still pounding yet, she isn’t really there.  She’s a vegetable. 

This morning, my sister Amy had a heart attack.  She’s 27.  Far too young to die.  But still, I feel God has no mercy for my family.  I’m losing faith in him even though this is the time when I should be praying for a miracle.  I feel like I’ve endured too much death the past years.  My grandmother, my uncle, my aunt, and now, my sister.  My only sister.  The only true sister I’ll ever have. 

We fought so much.  And I don’t regret the fights because that was our relationship.  No matter how much we disagreed on something we knew we still loved each other.

I watch as everyone says good bye to her with all those machines hooked up to her and the machine forcing her chest to heave up and down.  That’s not the Amy I remember.  I remember Amy on Mother’s Day last Sunday all dressed up looking as beautiful as she can be.  Her makeup was flawless and I loved how Faylind ran to her every moment. 

Now Faylind will have no mother.  A three year old losing her mother.  I can’t fathom it.  I started shaking and my body went numb when I saw Amy today.  She looked like she was asleep but I knew that no matter what I did, she wouldn’t wake up. 

I love you Amy and I’ll keep you close in my heart forever.  I’m praying still that God will give you the strength to come to.  Please Lord, a miracle would be lovely.